Hey guys,
This morning I was meeting with some men (5:40 am) and as we looked at Scripture, I was struck by the statement that God took King David “from the sheep pens” (Ps 78:70). God used David’s past life to prepare him for his future ministry. Whatever we have gone through (or are going through), God wants to use it (2 Cor. 1:3-4).
One of the men reminded me of an example of that very truth when we were in Nepal. I had asked him to speak to a group of Tibetan Buddhists. He said he didn’t feel worthy to do stuff like this because he had spent a number of years exploring world religions and eventually ended up an atheist before coming to Christ. We realized that God was getting ready to “redeem” his story by using it to identify with his audience. You see, in his religious pilgrimage he had delved into identifying himself as a Buddhist. So he could speak to them from a place of familiarity, starting where they were but ending up with Jesus.
I think (and know) God is using my life that way. As many of you know, these last several years have been dry spiritually. There has been no big sin, nor have I doubted. Just a dryness that accentuated my hunger (which is actually a form of worship — wanting to be close to someone in a deeper relationship with them is itself a form of love).
Recently, I’ve been realizing some truths that are facilitating a growing love for Christ. For example, I’ve realized that I’ve been spending a lot of energy trying to get something to grow. You can’t wish or will a plant to grow. But you can water it, fertilize it, pull weeds. Even pulling weeds can be fruitless and frustrating (a picture of trying to get rid of sin). If a field is full of weeds like Johnson grass, pulling it up doesn’t get rid of it.
One way of dealing with weeds is to plant a cover crop like soybeans that shadows the weeds out. In effect, you’re better off planting and cultivating good stuff than you are pulling weeds. Don’t get me wrong, I still pull weeds. For example, I’ve quit watching TV shows that cause “weeds” to grow in my mind and life. Recently I’ve begun to pray more. And pray more specifically.
So how can I “cultivate”? Here’s one way: I pray that I would incline my heart to His Word (Ps. 119:36), that He would “open my eyes that I might behold wonderful things from His Word” (Ps. 119:18). I pray that he would “give me an undivided heart” (Ps. 86:11b). Ever try to read Scripture or pray with a “divided heart”? And then I pray that He would “satisfy [me] in the morning with His unfailing love that [I] may sing for joy and be fed all [my] days” (Ps. 90:14). I got this from John Piper’s book When I Don’t Desire God. Then as I go to Scripture, I go differently and God feeds me. I am learning to love it (and Him) more.
It’s not the whole Journey, but it’s a step.
Thanks, Lord.


